Archive for Oktober, 2012

Interrupting the thesis…

I interrupt my thesis-writing to share this…

In the middle of all the chaos, tears, frustration, meetings, late nights, sleeping tablets and avoidance behaviour something is now starting to happen to me… I am becoming proud of my work. I am receiving feedback, from somewhere inside of myself that says “Wow, you really are doing this. And doing it well”. More than getting a master’s, publishing research and furthering my¬†education, this feeling is now the basis of completing my thesis. The knowledge that I can do it. That I have done it. The feeling I get when doing something well. Knowing that, how someone else interprets it, I am proud of myself. Which I really, really am today.

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Die gang

So sonder waarsku trap ek vanoggend, nog half deur die slaap, reguit in die diep gat wat soms in die nag langs my bed kom lê. Val my hart dwarsdeur die deksel wat ek lank terug so versigtig daarop geplaas het.

Dwaal ek vanoggend vir ure in die gange, deur die tonnels van herinneringe. Loop ek om elke hoek en draai in myself vas. In dele van jou wat nog, spookagtig in die krake rondstaan. Daar waar ek gedink het die spinnekop se web lankal die gedagtes sou toevee.

En as ek uiteindelik opkom vir asem, skyn die son effe te skerp

Verlang ek, net effens, na die donker van die gang